Little Diary

Hi, Little Diary.

“It’s been a while since the last time I wrote you a letter. I missed you so much. I wanted to update you about my life every day yet I’m always short in vocabulary.
You see, these past few days, I forgot about you. For a short period, I became so happy. My emotionally selfish self was gone. I was stable. I forgot to cry. My eyes dried up. Then, suddenly everything went blurred. My tears start to fall. And I am back again. I’m back again with pen and notes.
I have a problem little diary, but I couldn’t figure it out. What’s wrong with me? In a week, I’m happy, and then the next week, I’m unstable. Do you think I’m crazy? I think I am. I always love creating my drama. I once told myself, why not I start writing my novel? It’s a novel about the world I created inside my brain about my non-existent problem. What do you think about it, little diary? Should I start writing my book? So, I would stop being emotionally unstable.

This is one of my little diary stories. I write things. Everything. I remember when I was still a kid, my mom read my diary. There, I wrote how much I dislike her. How much I hated her for being nosy about everything. And I think she was hurt by what I wrote. Sorry mama, Happy Mother’s Day. I was a kid who did not understand why a mother needs to be tough, strict, and mean sometimes. I also wrote how much I like my neighbor’s son. I don’t know if my mom read it too but when I looked at her, reading my diary, I saw how sad she was. I felt so guilty for writing mean things about her. I stopped writing since that incident. But because writing was and is my life, so I hid my diary in a place where she couldn’t find it. I don’t know if my sister found it and read it as she’s now using my old room. 

What are your diary stories? Did your parents read it too? How did you feel about it?

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